There is no place for me.
I have nowhere.
I have nothing.
I'm at a loss,
searching for something..... far from me.
Posession is beyond me.
I am hopeless.
I am helpless.
I shrink back from love.
I find myself,
welcoming anger.
It thrills me,
consumes me,
annoints me.
Pain is all I wish to know.
So beat me,
use me,
kill me,
choose me.
I choose you as my love, my victim.
To you I grant all my endeavors.
Every once of terror,
Every single violation,
Is just a trivial tribulation
as I try to show my love for you.
Murder is my prayer,
homicidal scarifice will pave the way to everlasting love.
Laura K
2003
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