Awakenings…

Awakening: The physical and mental changes involved when one's vampirism begins to manifest itself, if one is a latent vampire.

Latent…. This meaning vampirism that comes later in ones life. I find that vampirism and awakings can start in as early as the teen years to early adulthood in most cases. And I would say any earlier is rare. And in most cases like me are so confused by everything that early, that it doesn't register as the problem till it hits the middle adult years.

But as of late I have read many accounts of vampirism manifesting much earlier in age. But I think about the change in life we all go through, are we aware enough to notice such changes? Perhaps. I shall share a story of my own personal awakening. I was around the age of 9 and I had an experience of a death and when it did I was touched in a way I could not forget and will not forget. This kind of ESP thing happened on and off from that time. I also found I was a loner always craving attention of anyone. I would do so much to my own outside just to fit in. Not knowing where it was I fit. I knew it was with someone and I knew that my surroundings effected me greatly. So I had a great apprehension for the great out doors.

I lost a big part of my life trying to fit in all the most negative life experiences. I feed on what ever. I was a mess and my interests where strange to most. I was always into spells, wizards and witches. I learned to cast from a friend here when I was in my early 20's. From there I was more one with myself. Being aware of those feelings I started to feel when I was 9. Things came back to me. And I found ways to fulfill my energies. I felt so much like I should but yet there was no name to what was happening to me. Counseling didn't really help. Medicine and Doctors didn't either. I'm so affected by my moods. Empathic vampirism is a pain sometimes. It was not until 1999 I found what my condition was. And trying to defend this condition is hard. So many people and so many misconceptions. I don't really know what awakening was like for everyone else. They can be different for each person. For me I was young and dumb I think. I didn't really know what was happening … I think I might have even missed it. Vampirism I think lays dormant tell its condition attracts your attention to it. Symptoms that today we can find more answers to… Thanks to Damien and the VC for having such knowledge, and contacts to help us find answers to why and what and how… Today we have everyone connected to the Internet with unlimited access to explanations of the subject, which helps make awakenings easier. People can then read about their symptoms and weather this is a need for energies both prana or empathic and elemental in nature. So I thank Damien for that which we can find help for. I hope anyone that has problems with something like awakening and symptoms which bother you, you now know where to go for information. again this story I told of my awakening is the way I remember it. Still to this day there are things hidden away in my mind I have erased as things that didn't happen. I have a strange gift but I hide that to. I live a rather quiet life sometimes. I have everything I ever needed. But there is always something more right.

Blessed be
Dunya


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